** Disclaimer: I actually wrote this a few months ago. Stay tuned to find out how I finally got over the hump.
I have been seriously stuck lately. After finally realizing I need to make a change, and doing some soul searching to find out what I actually want to do, I find myself at a standstill. I was talking to my husband last night and explaining how I just don’t know what steps to take next. Actually, if I’m being honest, it was more like a complete meltdown where I whined (cried uncontrollably) for 20 minutes about my job, my lack of resources, and my desire to do something different but how I just don’t know how.
In true form, he only listened to the whining for a short time before he started making suggestions of things I could do to move from Point A to Point B. This was really irritating. First, because I was having a pity party and really wanted someone to join in with me. And secondly, because he was right about his suggestions and I had to admit to myself that my excuses for why I’m stuck are complete bull shit. Dammit.
So, I went to bed thinking about the reasons why people become complacent, or stuck, or accept the mediocre. For me, there are several reasons – the unknown, lack of knowledge, uncertainty, naysayers, and, because it’s comfortable to do nothing. But, really, all of these can be encompassed by one word. Fear. I would guess this is the main culprit for most people. I hate to admit it, but I’m scared. I’m not entirely sure what I want. I’m not entirely sure I can make a go at it. I don’t know if I’ll fail. I don’t know if I can make any money at it. I don’t know what other people will say. I don’t know where to start. So, I sit on it. Really? I need to give myself a slap.
When I really think about it, the results don’t even matter. Who cares if I fail? Who cares what other people say? And, I’ve heard the best place to start is the beginning… so there’s that. At the end of the day, I’m already failing if I never start, right? It’s time I quit kidding myself that by not doing anything, I’m avoiding the risk. That’s a big fat lie.